Slight dread and annoyance filled every bit of me as I role-played how to untangle and remove from my life someone I had added to it. Someone I unintentionally and somewhat purposefully, never sought counsel from God on.
More than a little hesitant to hear the answer, I leaned into the wisdom of something much bigger than myself. Knowing I hadn’t the time nor emotional resources to keep inviting unnecessary things into my life.
So I asked: Lord, is this the guy for me? Is he the ONE?
Just as that sentence landed into the great wide open, the next sentence began, No. He’s not.
Ugh. Letting out a dreaded sigh….
It wasn’t but a month or so later I was rounding a corner in my apartment preparing for my day and the presence of God laid right into me. I dropped to my knees in tears as the Holy Spirit began to move my heart.
You have no room to love anyone. Your heart is filled to the brim with unforgiveness for the last man who hurt you.
What was God telling me and what truth would unfold from it?
That day, I wasted no time to write out a letter to the one I allowed in my life and who created such brokenness. The father to my daughter. Afterward, I set it aside and went on with my life misplacing the letter I hadn’t decided what to do with.
Several months later, I came across it again. As I read through the words from a few months back, I learned something about myself and the way God works. All too often the letter saturated in our hearts no longer resonates with our current truth.
We all have a way of doing this. Don’t we?
Deep-seated in our hearts, we manage to keep the pain alive. Long after it’s expiration date and beyond our own recognition.
In the months that followed the writing of that letter and God dousing me with his truth, I experienced an untangling from my life and heart. Not only was God faithful to follow through with healing my wounds but as my heart opened to His will, He was faithful to guide me away from further invitations.
Nonsense men, who absolutely didn’t belong.
My freedom can be your freedom.
God, in all His goodness, pulled a thread untangling me from a lifetime of questions like the one that launched it all, “Is this the one?”
In the sweetness of who He is, He birthed a new beginning. The key he gave me I pass to you. It is a key that holds the door to receiving one of the best gifts you will ever say “yes” to.
It doesn’t just set you free from the disappointment of the journey, it opens the door to abundance.
From my heart to yours and from one mess mastered to another, will you consider holding this key? Will you ask a good and faithful Father to journey with you down the sweet road of forgiveness?
I pray for a yes! Not for me, but for the journey of you.
Till next time,
Cassie Rajewich is a life coach to single moms as well as a writer and speaker of the heart. She is the creator of Unconventional Motherhood: Helping Single Moms Master the Mess. After ten years of mastering her own mess of single motherhood, she ditched the security and comfort of the life she had built, upped and left her residence of Las Vegas and made the move to Southern California where she began a new adventure, blending a family. She now helps other women navigate the sometimes difficult journey of single motherhood through her grace filled approach that develops order and organization within the heart and home.