I do not think I have ever had a good boyfriend! That’s pretty sad to say, huh? A few liars…yes! Some cheaters…those too! Abusers…definitely! However, a great guy, that loved me for me… I don’t remember that. Even as I write those words, I think it’s sad to say.
I have had a propensity of dating men that needed to use me in an effort to feel better about themselves. I have dated the guy that married the girl that he cheated with (wait… that happened twice). I have dated the guy that professed his loved for me, after he hit me. I have dated the guy that left for 8 years and then came back to me, as I raised our 9 year old child (alone), wanting me to act like the abandonment never happened. I have dated them all.
What I realized, however, was that I had a propensity for this. I had the tendency to date boys. I had allowed this to come into my life. These boys were emotionally and sometimes mentally broken. I did this! I engaged in every moment. I pushed pass every desire to leave. I stayed! I had to take responsibility for the role I played in allowing this to happen in my life, as well as the life of my precious child.
I also realized, that I had a Divine purpose – a purpose, that once fulfilled – will outweigh every broken promise, every tear that has fallen, and every time my heart broke open.
When I realized who I was, my propensity for the nonsense stopped. I am now at peace. I learned to forgive myself from my past mistakes and am moving into forgiving those around me who have hurt me. I learned that I am more than the nonsense, my past mistakes, or even my marital status. I learned that there’s a God in Heaven that loves me more than I can imagine and His words of me are true. I am chosen for greatness. Greatness does not tolerate abuse. Greatness does not tolerate a cheating boyfriend. Greatness waits on God to uncover her future spouse. Greatness waits on the Lord for all that is lovely and pure and good. And that is why I sit here in peace, laughing without fear of my future, and you can, too.
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