“Jesus did not die for you to be angry and bitter.” My pastor said that yesterday at church, and my jaw dropped.
I had just driven to church in tears, praying, telling God how exhausted I was, and begging him to bring me someone to sit with that day. As a divorced mother with 3 children, I have grown tired of sitting alone in services. I miss having someone next to me holding my hand. I was bitter and angry.
My oldest daughter, Emily, (7) could tell that something was wrong, and asked, “mama can I sit with you in big church today?”
It’s amazing how God answers your cries. It may not be exactly the way I wanted Him to at the time, which was manifest a Prince Charming that loves God and wants to take on my and my brood. But, He reminded me that He has already given me companionship, and a task to raise my children to know, love, and serve Jesus too. It’s not about me. He is the ultimate Prince Charming.
After my pastor said that, I started writing a list on the offering envelope (forgive me it’s all I had) answering what Jesus did die for. If He did not die for me to walk around being bitter and angry. Then what did He die for?
life without worry or anxiety
the ultimate love
I had come to church begging to feel loved, and left feeling fulfilled, and holding my daughter’s hand.
What would you add to the list?
Amanda Carroll calls herself a “Professional Mother” and is a single parent of 3 children under 7. Her family’s mission statement is to “Work hard, play hard. See needs, and meet them. Change the way the world sees God one life at a time.” She is the midday host and on-air personality on the international Christian radio network, K-LOVE.